### SB 3.4.5

> तथापि तदभिप्रेतं जानन्नहमरिन्दम ।\
> पृष्ठतोऽन्वगमं भर्तुः पादविश्लेषणाक्षमः ॥५॥

> tathāpi tad-abhipretaṁ\
> jānann aham arindama\
> pṛṣṭhato 'nvagamaṁ bhartuḥ\
> pāda-viśleṣaṇākṣamaḥ

*tathā api*—yet, in spite of; *tat-abhipretam*—His desire; *jānan*—knowing; *aham*—I; *arim-dama*—O subduer of the enemy (Vidura); *pṛṣṭhataḥ*—behind; *anvagamam*—followed; *bhartuḥ*—of the master; *pāda-viśleṣaṇa*—separation from His lotus feet; *akṣamaḥ*—not being able.

**Yet in spite of my knowing His desire [to destroy the dynasty], O Arindama [Vidura], I followed Him because it was impossible for me to bear separation from the lotus feet of the master.**