Delivery of the Message of Krṣṇa to the Gopīs
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He should have satisfied her. But He was so selfish that He could not forget Sītādevī and converted Śūrpaṇakhā into an ugly woman. Before that birth as a  kṣatriya , He took His birth as a  brāhmaṇa  boy known as Vāmanadeva and asked charity from Bali Mahārāja. Bali Mahārāja was so magnanimous that he gave Him whatever he had, yet Krṣṇa as Vāmanadeva ungratefully arrested him just like a crow and pushed him down to the Pātāla kingdom. We know all about Krṣṇa and how ungrateful He is. But here is the difficulty: in spite of His being so cruel and hardhearted, it is very difficult for us to give up talking about Him. Not only are we unable to give up this talk, but great sages and saintly persons are also engaged in talking about Him. We  gopīs  of Vṛndāvana do not want to make anymore friendships with this blackish boy, but we do not know how we shall be able to give up remembering and talking about His activities.”
Since Krṣṇa is absolute, His so-called unkind activities are as relishable as His kind activities. Saintly persons and great devotees like the  gopīs  cannot give up Krṣṇa in any circumstances. Lord Caitanya therefore prayed, “Krṣṇa, You are free and independent in all respects. You can either embrace me or crush me under Your feet—whatever You like. You may make me brokenhearted by not letting me see You throughout my whole life, but You are my only object of love.”
“In my opinion,” Śrīmatī Rādhārāṇī continued, “one should not hear about Krṣṇa, because as soon as a drop of the nectar of His transcendental activities is poured into the ear, one immediately rises above the platform of duality, attraction and rejection. Being completely freed from the attraction of material attachment, one gives up the attachment for this material world, family, home, wife, children and everything which is materially dear to every person. Being dispossessed of all material acquisition, one makes his relatives and himself unhappy. Then he wanders in search of Krṣṇa, either as a human being or in other species of life, even as a bird. It is very difficult to actually understand Krṣṇa, His name, His quality, His form, His pastimes, His paraphernalia and His entourage.”
Śrīmatī Rādhārāṇī continued to speak to the black messenger of Krṣṇa. “Please do not talk anymore about Krṣṇa. It is better to talk about something else. We are already doomed, like the black-spotted she-deer in the forest who are enchanted by the sweet musical vibration of the hunter. In the same way, we have been enchanted by the sweet words of Krṣṇa, and again and again we are thinking of the rays of the nails of His toes. We are becoming more and more lustful for His association; therefore, I request you not to talk of Krṣṇa anymore.”
This talk of Rādhārāṇī with the bumblebee messenger and Her accusing