302
Krṣṇa, the Supreme Personality of Godhead
Krṣṇa, and, at the same time, Her inability to give up talking about Him, are symptoms of the topmost transcendental ecstasy, called  mahābhāva . The ecstatic  mahābhāva  manifestation is possible only in the persons of Rādhārāṇī and Her associates. Great  ācāryas  like Śrīla Rūpa Gosvāmī and Viśvanātha Cakravartī Thākur have analyzed these  mahābhāva  speeches of Śrīmatī Rādhārāṇī, and they have described the different sentiments such as  udghūrṇā , bewilderment, and  jalpapratijalpa , talking in different ways. In Rādhārāṇī is found the science of  ujjala , or the brightest jewel or love of God. While Rādhārāṇī was talking with the bee and the bee was flying hither and thither, it all of a sudden disappeared from Her sight. She was in full mourning due to separation from Krṣṇa and was feeling ecstasy by talking with the bee. But as soon as the bee disappeared, She became almost mad, thinking that the messenger-bee might have returned to Krṣṇa to inform Him all about Her talking against Him. “Krṣṇa must have been very sorry to hear it,” She thought. In this way She was very much overwhelmed with another type of ecstasy.
In the meantime, the bee, flying hither and thither, appeared before Her again. She thought, “Krṣṇa is still kind to Me. In spite of the messenger carrying disruptive messages, He is so kind that He has again sent the bee to take Me to Him.” Śrīmatī Rādhārāṇī was very careful this time not to say anything against Krṣṇa. “My dear friend, I welcome you,” she said. “Krṣṇa is so kind that He has again sent you. Krṣṇa is so kind and affectionate to Me that He has sent you back, fortunately, in spite of your carrying My message against Him. My dear friend, you can ask from Me whatever you want. I shall give you anything because you are so kind upon Me. You have come to take Me to Krsna because He is not able to come here. He is surrounded by new girl friends in Mathurā. But you are a tiny creature. How can you take Me there? How will you be able to help Me in meeting Krṣṇa while He is taking rest there along with the goddess of fortune and embracing her to His chest? Never mind. Let us forget all these things about My going there or sending you. Please let Me know how Krṣṇa is faring in Mathurā. Tell Me if He still remembers His foster father, Nanda Mahārāja, His affectionate mother, Yaśodā, His cowherd friends and His poor friends like us, the  gopīs . I am sure that He must sometimes sing about us. We served Him just like maidservants, without any payment. Is there any possibility that Krṣṇa will again come back and place His arms around us? His limbs are always fragrant with the  aguru  scent. Please put all these inquiries to Krṣṇa.”
Uddhava was standing near, and he heard Rādhārāṇī talking in this way, as if She had become almost mad after Krṣṇa. He was exceedingly surprised