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ache.” These are some of the symptoms of Mother Yaśodā’s anxiety for Krsna.
When Akrūra was present in Vṛndāvana and was narrating the activities of Kṛṣṇa in Dvārakā, Mother Yaśodā was informed that Kṛṣṇa had married so many queens and was very busy there in His householder affairs. Hearing this, Mother Yaśodā lamented how unfortunate she was that she could not get her son married just after passing His  kaiśora  age, and thus she could not receive both her son and daughter-in-law at her home. She exclaimed, “My dear Akrūra, you are simply throwing thunderbolts on my head!” These are the signs of lamentation on the part of Mother Yaśodā in separation from Kṛṣṇa.
Similarly, Mother Yaśodā felt frustration when she thought, “Although I have millions of cows, the milk of these cows could not satisfy Kṛṣṇa. Therefore let a curse be on this milk! And I also am condemned because although I am so opulent in material prosperity, I am now unable to smell the head of my child and feed Him with my breast milk as I used to do when He was here in Vṛndāvana.” This is a sign of frustration on the part of Mother Yaśodā in separation from Kṛṣṇa.
One friend of Krṣṇa’s addressed Him thus: “My dear lotus-eyed one, when You were living in Gokula You were always bearing a stick in Your hand. That stick is now lying idle in the house of Mother Yaśodā, and whenever she sees it she becomes motionless just like the stick.” This is the sign of becoming stunned in separation from Krṣṇa. In separation from Krṣṇa Mother Yaśodā became so humble that she prayed to the creator of the universe, Lord Brahmā, with tears in her eyes: “My dear creator, won’t you kindly bring my dear son Krṣṇa back to me so that I can see Him at least for a moment?” Sometimes in restlessness like a madwoman Mother Yaśodā used to accuse Nanda Mahārāj, “What are you doing in the palace? You shameless man! Why do people call you the King of Braja? It is very astonishing that while being separated from your dear son Krṣṇa, you are still living within Vṛndāvana as a hard-hearted father!”
Someone informed Krṣṇa about the madness of Mother Yaśodā in the following words: “In madness Mother Yaśodā has addressed the  kadamba  trees and inquired from them, ‘Where is my son?’ Simi-