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circumstances, what is the use of My sustaining this useless body? There is no need for such a body by any living entity.” This is a sign of frustration in ecstatic love for Krsna.
Similarly, in  Dāna-keli-kaumudī , Śrīmatī Rādhārāṇī, pointing to Krṣṇa, says, “This clever boy of the forest has the beauty of a bluish lotus flower, and He can attract all the young girls of the universe. Now after giving Me a taste of His transcendental body, He has enthused Me, and it is more than I can tolerate. I am now feeling like a female elephant who has been enthused by a male elephant!” This is an instance of jubilation in ecstatic love with Krṣṇa.
Steady ecstasy of conjugal love is the original cause of bodily enjoyment. In the  Padyāvalī  this original cause of union is described when Rādhārāṇī tells one of Her constant companions: “My dear friend, who is this boy whose eyelids, dancing constantly, have increased the beauty of His face and attracted My desire for conjugal love? His ears are decorated with the buds of  aśoka  flowers, and He has dressed Himself in yellow robes. By the sound of His flute, this boy has already made Me impatient.”
The conjugal love of Rādhā-Kṛṣṇa is never disturbed by any personal consideration. The undisturbed nature of the conjugal love between Rādhā and Kṛṣṇa is described thus: “Just a little distance away from Kṛṣṇa was Mother Yaśodā, and Kṛṣṇa was surrounded by all of His friends. In front of His eyes there was Candrāvalī, and, at the same time, on a chunk of stone in front of the entrance to Braja, there was standing the demon known as Vṛṣāsura. But even in such circumstances, when Kṛṣṇa saw Rādhāraṇī standing just behind a bush of many creepers, immediately His beautiful eyebrows moved just like lightning towards Her.”
Another instance is described as follows: “On one side of the courtyard the dead body of Śaṅkhāsura was lying, surrounded by many jackals. On another side were many learned  brāhmaṇas  who were all self-controlled. They were offering nice prayers, which were as soothing as the cool breeze in summer. In front of Kṛṣṇa, Lord Baladeva was standing, causing a cooling effect. But even amidst all these different circumstances of soothing and disturbing effects, the lotus flower of ecstatic conjugal love that Kṛṣṇa felt for Rādhārāṇī