Text 143]
Rūpa Gosvāmī's Meeting with the Lord
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eṣa snigdha-ghana-dyutir manasi me lagnaḥ paṭe vīkṣaṇāt kaṣṭaṁ dhik puruṣa-traye ratir abhūn manye mṛtiḥ śreyasī
SYNONYMS
ekasya —of one person;  śrutam —heard;  eva —certainly;  lumpati —take away;  matim —the mind;  kṛṣṇa iti —Kṛṣṇa;  nāma-akṣaram —the letters of the name;  sāndra-unmāda —of intense madness;  paramparām —a shower;  upanayati —brings;  anyasya —of another;  vaṁśī-kalaḥ —the sound vibration of the flute;  eṣaḥ —this third one;  snigdha —giving love;  ghana-dyutiḥ —lightninglike effulgence;  manasi —in the mind;  me —My;  lagnaḥ —attachment;  paṭe —in the picture;  vīkṣaṇāt —by seeing;  kaṣṭam dhik —oh, shame upon Me;  puruṣa-traye —to three persons;  ratiḥ —attachment;  abhūt —has appeared;  manye —I think;  mṛtiḥ —death;  śreyasī —better.
TRANSLATION
Experiencing previous attachment to Kṛṣṇa [pūrva-rāga], Śrīmatī Rādhārāṇī thought: “Since I have heard the name of a person called Kṛṣṇa, I have practically lost My good sense. Then, there is another person who plays His flute in such a way that after I hear the vibration, intense madness arises in My heart. And again there is still another person to whom My mind becomes attached when I see His beautiful lightning effulgence in His picture. Therefore I think that I am greatly condemned, for I have become simultaneously attached to three persons. It would be better for Me to die because of this.”
PURPORT
This verse is from  Vidagdha-mādhava  (2.9).
TEXT 143
ইয়ং সখি মুদ্রংসাধ্যা রাধা-হৃদয়বেদনা।
কৃতা যত্র চিকিৎসাপি কুৎসায়াং পর্যবস্তুতি ॥ ১৪৩ ॥
iyaṁ sakhi suduḥsādhyā rādhā hṛdaya-vedanā kṛtā yatra cikitsāpi kutsāyāṁ paryavasyati
SYNONYMS
iyam —this;  sakhi —my dear friend;  suduḥsādhyā —incurable;  rādhā —of Śrīmatī Rādhārāṇī;  hṛdaya-vedanā —palpitation of the heart;  kṛtā —done;  yatra —