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Śrī Caitanya-caritāmṛta
[Antya-līlā, Ch. 14]
Ganges;  netre —in the eyes;  vahe —flows;  kichui —anything;  nā dekhe —could not see.
TRANSLATION
Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu sat down on the ground and began to mark it with His nails. He was blinded by tears, which flowed from His eyes like the Ganges.
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‘পাইন্দু বৃন্দাবননাথ, পুনঃ হারাইন্দু’। কে মোর নিলেক কৃষ্ণ ? কাহাঁ মুই আইন্দু’ ? ৩৭ ॥
‘pāiluṅ vṛndāvana-nātha, punaḥ hārāiluṅ ke mora nileka kṛṣṇa? kāhāṅ mui āinu’?
SYNONYMS
pāiluṅ —I got;  vṛndāvana-nātha —the Supreme Lord of Vṛndāvana;  punaḥ —again;  hārāiluṅ —I have lost;  ke —who;  mora —My;  nileka —took away;  kṛṣṇa —Lord Kṛṣṇa;  kāhāṅ —where;  mui āinu —have I come.
TRANSLATION
Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu said, "I found Kṛṣṇa, the Lord of Vṛndāvana, but I have lost Him again. Who has taken My Kṛṣṇa? Where have I come?"
PURPORT
These are the feelings of Śrīmatī Rādhārāṇī. First Lord Caitanya felt that He had been taken to Vṛndāvana, where He saw Kṛṣṇa’s  rāsa  dance with the  gopīs . Then He was brought to Kurukṣetra to see Lord Jagannātha, His sister (Subhadrā) and Lord Balarāma. Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu lost Vṛndāvana and Kṛṣṇa, the master of Vṛndāvana. At this time, Caitanya Mahāprabhu experienced  divyonmāda , transcendental madness in separation from Kṛṣṇa. At Kurukṣetra, Kṛṣṇa displays His opulence, whereas in Vṛndāvana He is in His original position. Kṛṣṇa never goes even a step away from Vṛndāvana; therefore Kurukṣetra is less important for the  gopīs  than Vṛndāvana.
Although devotees who worship Kṛṣṇa in opulence (His Vaikuṇṭha aspect) may prefer to see Lord Kṛṣṇa at Kurukṣetra along with Subhadrā and Balarāma, the  gopīs  want to see Kṛṣṇa in Vṛndāvana, performing the  rāsa  dance with Śrīmatī Rādhārāṇī. Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu showed by practical example how one can cultivate the mood of Rādhārāṇī and the other  gopīs  in separation from Kṛṣṇa. Devotees absorbed in this mood do not like to see Kṛṣṇa anywhere else but