Text 53]
The Lord's Feelings of Separation
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PURPORT
This verse is part of a description of Śrīmatī Rādhārāṇī's different traits from  Ujivala-nīlamaṇi  by Śrīla Rūpa Gosvāmī. In this book, he elaborately explains the ten symptoms as follows.
Cintā.  As stated in the  Haṁsadūta :
yadā yāto gopī-hṛdaya-madano nanda-sadanān mukundo gāndinyās tanayam anurundhan madhu-purīm tadāmāṅkṣīc cintā-sariti ghana-ghūrṇāparicayair agādhāyāṁ vādhāmaya-payasi rādhā virahiṇī
"At the request of Akrūra, Kṛṣṇa and Balarāma left the house of Nanda Mahārāja for Mathurā. At that time, Śrīmatī Rādhārāṇī's mind was disrupted, and She became almost mad because of extreme separation from Kṛṣṇa. She experienced great mental pain and agitation, which caused Her to drown in mental speculation in the river of anxiety. She thought, 'Now I am going to die, and when I die, Kṛṣṇa will surely come back to see Me again. But when He hears of My death from the people of Vṛndāvana, He will certainly be very unhappy. Therefore I shall not die.'" This is the explanation of the word  cintā .
Jāgara.  As stated in the  Padyāvali :
yāḥ paśyanti priyaṁ svapne dhanyāstāḥ sakhi yoṣitaḥ asmākaṁ tu gate kṛṣṇe gatā nidrāpi vairiṇī
Thinking Herself very unfortunate, Śrīmatī Rādhārāṇī addressed Her very dear friend Viśākhā, "My dear friend, if I could see Kṛṣṇa in My dreams, I would certainly be glorified for My great fortune. But what can I do? Sleep also plays mischievously with Me. Indeed, it has become My enemy. Therefore I have not slept since the departure of Kṛṣṇa."
Udvega.  This word is also explained in the  Haṁsadūta  as follows:
mano me hā kaṣṭaṁ jvalati kim ahaṁ hanta karavai na pāraṁ nāvāraṁ sumukhi kalayām yasya jaladheḥ iyaṁ vande mūrdhnā sapadi tam upāyaṁ kathaya me parāmṛśye yasmād dhṛti-kaṇikayāpi kṣaṇi-kayā
Śrīmatī Rādhārāṇī addressed Lalitā, "My dear beautiful-faced Lalitā, I cannot express how My heart is burning. It is a great, unfathomable ocean of anxiety. Still, I wish to offer My obeisances at your lotus feet. What shall I do? Please consider