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Śrī Caitanya-caritāmṛta
[Antya-lilā, Ch. 19]
pāpa-phala —sinful reaction;  ye —that;  kṛṣṇa —Kṛṣṇa;  mora —My;  prema-adhīna —dependent on love;  tāre —Him;  kaila —has made;  udāsīna —indifferent;  ei mora —this is My;  abhāgya —misfortune;  prabala —very strong.
TRANSLATION
“Yet why should I be angry with Kṛṣṇa? It is the fault of My own misfortune. The fruit of my sinful activities has ripened, and therefore Kṛṣṇa, who has always been dependent on My love, is now indifferent. This means that My misfortune is very strong.”
TEXT 53
এইমত গৌর-রায়, বিষাদে করে হায় হায়, ‘হা হা কুষ্ণ, তুমি গেলা কতি ?’   গোপীভাব হৃদয়ে, তার বাক্যে বিলাপয়ে, ‘গোবিন্দ দামোদর মাধবেতি’ ॥ ৫৩ ॥
ei-mata gaura-rāya, viṣāde kare hāya hāya, ‘hā hā kṛṣṇa, tumi gelā kati?’ gopī-bhāva hṛdaye, tāra vākye vilāpaye, ‘govinda dāmodara mādhaveti’
SYNONYMS
ei-mata —in this way;  gaura-rāya —Lord Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu;  viṣāde —in lamentation due to separation;  kare hāya hāya —always says “alas, alas”;  hā hā kṛṣṇa —oh, oh Kṛṣṇa;  tumi gelā kati —where have You gone;  gopī-bhāva hṛdaye —with the ecstatic love of the  gopīs  in His heart;  tāra vākye —in their words;  vilāpaye —He laments;  govinda dāmodara mādhava —O Govinda, O Dāmodara, O Mādhava;  iti —thus.
TRANSLATION
In this way, Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu lamented in the mood of separation, “Alas, alas! O Kṛṣṇa, where have You gone?” Feeling in His heart the ecstatic emotions of the  gopīs , Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu agonized in their words, saying, “O Govinda! O Dāmodara! O Mādhava!”
TEXT 54
তবে স্বরূপ-রামরায়, করি’ নানা উপায়, মহাপ্রভুর করে আশ্বাসন।