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Śrī Caitanya-caritāmṛta
[Antya-līlā, Ch. 20]
TRANSLATION
I infer that "I have written" is a false understanding, for my body is like a wooden doll.
TEXT 93
বৃদ্ধ জরাতুর আমি অঙ্ক, বধির । হস্ত হালে, মনোবুদ্ধি নহে মোর স্থির ॥ ৯৩ ॥
vṛddha jarātura āmi andha, badhira hasta hāle, manobuddhi nahe mora sthira
SYNONYMS
vṛddha—an old man; jarā-ātura—troubled by invalidity; āmi—I; andha—blind; badhira—deaf; hasta hāle—my hands tremble; manaḥ-buddhi—mind and intelligence; nahe—not; mora—my; sthira—steady.
TRANSLATION
I am old and troubled by invalidity. I am almost blind and deaf, my hands tremble, and my mind and intelligence are unsteady.
TEXT 94
নানা-রোগগ্রস্ত, —চলিতে বসিতে না পারি । পঞ্চরোগ-পীড়া-ব্যাকুল, রাত্রি-দিনে মরি ॥ ৯৪ ॥
nānā-roga-grasta, —calite vasite nā pāri pañca-roga-pīḍā-vyākula, rātri-dine mari
SYNONYMS
nānā-roga-grasta—affected by so many diseases; calite—to walk; vasite—to sit down; nā pāri—I am not properly able; pañca-roga-pīḍā-vyākula—always disturbed by five kinds of disease; rātri-dine—day or night; mari—I can die any time.
TRANSLATION
I am infected by so many diseases that I can neither properly walk nor properly sit. Indeed, I am always exhausted by five kinds of disease. I may die at any time of the day or night.