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Šrū Caitanva =caritāmrta
[[Madhva-lija] Ch 2]
SYNONYMS
na —never;  prema-gandhaḥ —a scent of love of Godhead;  asti —there is;  darā api —even in a slight proportion;  me —My;  harau —in the Supreme Personality of Godhead;  krandāmi —I cry;  saubhāgya-bharam —the volume of My fortune;  prakāśitum —to exhibit;  vaṁśī-vilāsi —of the great flute player;  ānana —at the face;  lokanam —looking;  vinā —without;  vibharmi —I carry;  yat —because;  prāṇa-pataṅgakān —My insect-like life;  vṛthā —with no purpose.
TRANSLATION
Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu continued:   “My dear friends, I have not the slightest tinge of love of Godhead within My heart. When you see Me crying in separation, I am just falsely exhibiting a demonstration of My great fortune. Indeed, not seeing the beautiful face of Kṛṣṇa playing His flute, I continue to live My life like an insect, without purpose.
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দূরে শুদ্ধপ্রেমগন্ধ,
dūre śuddha-prema-gandha, kapaṭa premera bandha seha mora nāhi kṛṣṇa-pāya tabe ye kari krandana, sva-saubhāgya prakhyāpana, kari, ihā jāniha niścaya
SYNONYMS
dūre  —far away;  śuddha-prema-gandha —a scent of pure devotional love;  kapaṭa —false;  premera —of love of Godhead;  bandha —binding;  seha —that;  mora —My;  nāhi —there is not;  kṛṣṇa-pāya —at the lotus feet of Kṛṣṇa;  tabe —but;  ye —that;  kari —I do;  krandana —crying;  sva-saubhāgya —My own fortune;  prakhyāpana —demonstration;  kari —I do;  ihā —this;  jāniha —know;  niścaya —certainly.
TRANSLATION
“Actually, My love for Krşna is far, far away. Whatever I do is actually false. When you see Me cry, I am simply exhibiting My great fortune. Please try to understand this beyond a doubt.