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Šri Caitanya-caritāmrta
[[Madhya-lila]] Ch 2
SYNONYMS
śeṣa-līlāra —of the pastimes at the end;  sūtra-gaṇa —the codes;  kailuṅ —I have done;  kichu —some;  vivaraṇa —description;  ihāṅ —here;  vistārite —to expand more and more;  citta haya —there is a desire;  thāke —remains;  yadi —if;  āyuḥ-śeṣa —the end of life;  vistāriba —I shall describe;  līlā —pastimes;  śeṣa —at the end;  yadi —if;  mahā-prabhura —of Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu;  krpā —mercy;  haya —there is.
TRANSLATION
I have already given in codes all the facts and figures of Lord Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu’s last pastimes, and I have a desire to describe them elaborately. If I remain longer and am fortunate enough to receive the mercy of Lord Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu, I shall try to describe them again more elaborately.
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আমি বৃদ্ধ জরাতুর,                      লিখিতে কাঁপয়ে কর, 
    মনে কিছু স্মরণ না হয় । 
    না দেখিয়ে নয়নে,                      না শুনিয়ে শ্রবণে, 
    তবু লিখি’—এ বড় বিস্ময় ॥ ৯০ ॥
āmi vṛddha jarātura, likhite kāṅpaye kara, mane kichu smaraṇa nā haya nā dekhiye nayane, nā śuniye śravaṇe, tabu likhi’—e baḍa vismaya
SYNONYMS
āmi —I;  vṛḍdha —old man;  jarā-ātura —disturbed by invalidity;  likhite —to write;  kāṅpaye —trembles;  kara —the hand;  mane —in the mind;  kichu —any;  smaraṇa —remembrance;  nā haya —there is not;  nā dekhiye —I cannot see;  nayane —by the eyes;  nā śuniye —I cannot hear;  śravaṇe —with the ears;  tabu —still;  likhi' —writing; e—this;  baḍa vismaya —a great wonder.
TRANSLATION
I have now become too old and disturbed by invalidity. While writing, my hands tremble. I cannot remember anything, nor can I see or hear properly. Still I write, and this is a great wonder.