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Prayers by Queen Kuntī
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for others;  eva —certainly;  dehasya —of the body;  bahvyah —many, many;  me —by me;  akṣauhiṇīh —combination of military phalanxes;  hatāh —killed.
TRANSLATION
King Yudhiṣṭhira said: O my lot! I am the most sinful man! Just see my heart, which is full of ignorance! This body, which is ultimately meant for others, has killed many, many phalanxes of men.
PURPORT
A solid phalanx of 21,870 chariots, 21,870 elephants, 109,650 infantry and 65,600 cavalry is called an  akṣauhiṇī . And many  akṣauhiṇīs  were killed on the Battlefield of Kurukṣetra. Mahārāja Yudhiṣṭhira, as the most pious king of the world, takes for himself the responsibility of killing such a huge number of living beings because the battle was fought to reinstate him on the throne. This body is, after all, meant for others. While there is life in the body, it is meant for the service of others, and when it is dead it is meant to be eaten up by dogs and jackals or maggots. He is sorry because for such a temporary body such a huge massacre was committed.
TEXT 49
बालद्विजसुहन्मित्रपितृभ्रातृगुरुद्वहः । न मे स्यान्निरयान्मोक्षो ह्यपि वर्षायुतायुतैः ॥४९॥
bāla-dvija-suhṛn-mitra- pitṛbhrātṛ-guru-druhaḥ na me syān nirayān mokṣo hy api varṣāyutā-yutaiḥ
bāla —boys;  dvija —the twice-born;  suhṛt —well-wishers;  mitra —friends;  pitṛ —parents;  bhrātṛ —brothers;  guru —preceptors;  druhaḥ —one who has killed;  na —never;  me —my;  syāt —there shall be;  nirayāt —from hell;  mokṣaḥ —liberation;  hi —certainly;  api —although;  varṣa —years;  ayutā —millions;  yutaiḥ —being added.
TRANSLATION
I have killed many boys,  brāhmaṇas , well-wishers, friends, parents, preceptors and brothers. Though I live millions of years, I will not be relieved from the hell that awaits me for all these sins.