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Śrīmad-Bhāgavatam
[Canto 9, Ch. 19]
such  tapasya , or austerity. By the austerity of voluntarily stopping sex life at home and going to the forest to engage in spiritual activities in the association of devotees, one achieves the actual purpose of human life.
TEXT 12
तथाहं कृपणः सुभु भवत्याः प्रेमयन्त्रितः । आत्मानं नाभिजानामि मोहितस्तव मायया ॥१२॥
tathāham kṛpaṇaḥ subhru bhavatyāḥ prema-yantritaḥ ātmānam nābhijānāmi mohitas tava māyayā
tathā —exactly like the he-goat;  aham —I;  kṛpaṇaḥ —a miser with no sense of the importance of life;  su-bhru —O my wife, with beautiful eyebrows;  bhavatyāḥ —in your company;  prema-yantritaḥ —as if tied in love, although it is actually lust;  ātmānam —self-realization (what I am and what my duty is);  na abhijānāmi —I could not realize even until now;  mohitaḥ —being bewildered;  tava —your;  māyayā —by the materially attractive feature.
TRANSLATION
O my dear wife with beautiful eyebrows, I am exactly like that he-goat, for I am so poor in intelligence that I am captivated by your beauty and have forgotten the real task of self-realization.
PURPORT
If one remains a victim of the so-called beauty of his wife, his family life is nothing but a dark well.  Hitvātma-pātam gṛham andha-kūpam . Existence in such a dark well is certainly suicidal. If one wants relief from the miserable condition of material life, one must voluntarily give up his lusty relationship with his wife; otherwise there is no question of self-realization. Unless one is extremely advanced in spiritual consciousness, household life is nothing but a dark well in which one commits