Devotional Service in Attachment
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always thinks of himself as the most wretched, and he is only satisfied that someday or other Krishna will be kind enough to favor him by engaging him in devotional service. In the  Padma Purana  another instance of the pure devotee is found, where the king, although the best of all human beings, was begging from door to door and was even praying to the lowest of human society, the  Chandala .
Sri Sanatan Goswami later composed the following verse: "I am low in love of Godhead, and I haven't any asset for hearing about devotional service. Neither do I have any understanding of the science of devotional service, nor do I have any cultivation of knowledge, nor any righteous activities behind me; nor am I born of high family. But, O Darling of the damsels of Braja, still I maintain a hope for achieving You, and that hope is disturbing me." So a devotee, being touched deeply by such strong desire, always chants  Hare Krishna, Hare Krishna, Krishna Krishna, Hare Hare/Hare Rama, Hare Rama, Rama Rama, Hare Hare .
In this connection a nice verse by Bilvamongal appears in  Krishna Karnamrita : "O Player of the nice flute, Krishna, the beauty of Your boyhood activities is very wonderful in this world. You know the agitation of my mind, and I know what You are. Nobody knows how confidential our relationship is. Now my eyes are anxious to see You and Your face, but I cannot see You. Please—let me know what I shall do." A similar passage appears in  Bhakti Rasamrita Sindhu , by Rupa Goswami, which states: "O Govinda! this young girl with tears in her eyes is crying in a sweet voice, chanting Your Glories." Such pure devotees are always anxious to describe the Glories of Krishna, and to live in a place where Krishna exhibited His Pastimes.
A similar verse appears again in  Krishna Karnamrita : "This Body of Krishna is so nice, His Face is so nice—everything about Him is only sweet and fragrant." A similar passage also appears in the  Bhakti Rasamrita Sindhu : "O Lotus-eyed One, when shall I be able to always chant Your Holy Name, and being agitated in that chanting, when shall I be able to dance on the bank of the Yamuna?"
All the above descriptions made by Lord Chaitanya to Sanatan Goswami are called symptoms of the  Bhava  stage of devotional service. Next He proceeds to describe the symptoms of actual love for Krishna. He says that nobody can understand a person who has developed love of Krishna—neither his words, his activities, nor his symptoms. Even if one is very learned, it is very difficult for him to understand a pure devotee in love of Godhead. This is confirmed in  Bhakti Rasamrita Sindhu  also.
A person engaged in devotional service becomes slackened in his heart