Delivery of the Message of Krsna to the Gopis 301

He should have satisfied her. But He was so selfish that He could not forget
Sitadevi and converted Sirpanakha into an ugly woman. Before that birth
as a ksatriya, He took His birth as a brahmana boy known as Vamanadeva
and asked charity from Bali Maharaja. Bali Maharaja was so magnanimous
that he gave Him whatever he had, yet Krsna as Vamanadeva ungratefully
arrested him just like a crow and pushed him down to the Patala kingdom.
We know all about Krsna and how ungrateful He is. But here is the
difficulty: in spite of His being so cruel and hardhearted, it is very dif-
ficult for us to give up talking about Him. Not only are we unable to give
up this talk, but great sages and saintly persons are also engaged in talking
about Him. We gopis of Vrndavana do not want to make anymore
friendships with this blackish boy, but we do not know how we shall be
able to give up remembering and talking about His activities.”

Since Krsna is absolute, His so-called unkind activities are as relishable
as His kind activities. Saintly persons and great devotees like the gopis
cannot give up Krsna in any circumstances. Lord Caitanya therefore
prayed, “Krsna, You are free and independent in all respects. You can
either embrace me or crush me under Your feet—whatever You like. You
may make me brokenhearted by not letting me see You throughout my
whole life, but You are my only object of love.”

“In my opinion,” Srimati Radharani continued, “one should not hear
about Krsna, because as soon as a drop of the nectar of His transcendental
activities is poured into the ear, one immediately rises above the platform
of duality, attraction and rejection. Being completely freed from the
attraction of material attachment, one gives up the attachment for this
material world, family, home, wife, children and everything which is
materially dear to every person. Being dispossessed of all material acquisi-
tion, one makes his relatives and himself unhappy. Then he wanders in
search of Krsna, either as a human being or in other species of life, even
as a bird. It is very difficult to actually understand Krsna, His name, His
quality, His form, His pastimes, His paraphernalia and His entourage.”

Srimati Radharani continued to speak to the black messenger of Krsna.
“Please do not talk anymore about Krsna. It is better to talk about some-
thing else. We are already doomed, like the black-spotted she-deer in the
forest who are enchanted by the sweet musical vibration of the hunter. In
the same way, we have been enchanted by the sweet words of Krsna, and
again and again we are thinking of the rays of the nails of His toes. We are
becoming more and more lustful for His association; therefore, I request
you not to talk of Krsna anymore.”

This talk of Radharani with the bumblebee messenger and Her accusing
