302 Krsna, the Supreme Personality of Godhead

Krsna, and, at the same time, Her inability to give up talking about Him,
are symptoms of the topmost transcendental ecstasy, called mahabhava.
The ecstatic mahabhava manifestation is possible only in the persons of
Radharani and Her associates. Great acaryas like Srila Ripa Gosvami and
Vigvanatha Cakravarti Thakur have analyzed these mahabhava speeches of
Srimati Radharani, and they have described the different sentiments such
as udghirna, bewilderment, and jalpapratijalpa, talking in different ways.
In Radharani is found the science of ujjala, or the brightest jewel or love
of God. While Radharani was talking with the bee and the bee was flying
hither and thither, it all of a sudden disappeared from Her sight. She was
in full mourning due to separation from Krsna and was feeling ecstasy by
talking with the bee. But as soon as the bee disappeared, She became
almost mad, thinking that the messenger-bee might have returned to Krsna
to inform Him all about Her talking against Him. ‘“‘Krsna must have been
very sorry to hear it,” She thought. In this way She was very much
overwhelmed with another type of ecstasy.

In the meantime, the bee, flying hither and thither, appeared before
Her again. She thought, ‘‘Krsna is still kind to Me. In spite of the mes-
senger carrying disruptive messages, He is so kind that He has again sent
the bee to take Me to Him.” Srimati Radharani was very careful this time
not to say anything against Krsna. “My dear friend, I welcome you,” she
said. “Krsna is so kind that He has again sent you. Krsna is so kind and
affectionate to Me that He has sent you back, fortunately, in spite of your
carrying My message against Him. My dear friend, you can ask from Me
whatever you want.I shall give you anything because you are so kind upon
Me. You have come to take Me to Krsna because He is not able to come
here. He is surrounded by new girl friends in Mathura. But you are a tiny
creature. How can you take Me there? How will you be able to help Me in
meeting Krsna while He is taking rest there along with the goddess of
fortune and embracing her to His chest? Never mind. Let us forget all
these things about My going there or sending you. Please let Me know
how Krsna is faring in Mathura. Tell Me if He still remembers His foster
father, Nanda Maharaja, His affectionate mother, Yasoda, His cowherd
friends and His poor friends like us, the gopis. I am sure that He must
sometimes sing about us. We served Him just like maidservants, without
any payment. Is there any possibility that Krsna will again come back and
place His arms around us? His limbs are always fragrant with the aguru
scent. Please put all these inquiries to Krsna.”

Uddhava was standing near, and he heard Radharani talking in this way,
as if She had become almost mad after Krsna. He wasexceedingly surprised
