29 / Expressions of Love for Krsna
There are some bodily symptoms which express overwhelming ec- |
static love. They are counted at thirty-one as follows: disappoint-
ment, lamentation, humility, guilt, fatigue, intoxication, pride, doubt, |
apprehension, intense emotion, madness, forgetfulness, disease, con- |
fusion, death, laziness, inertness, bashfulness, concealment, remem- |
bering, argumentativeness, anxiety, thoughtfulness, endurance, happi-
ness, eagerness, haughtiness, envy, impudence, dizziness and alertness.
Disappointment
When one is forced to act in a way which is forbidden, or to refrain
from acting in a way which is proper, he becomes regretful and thinks
himself dishonored. At that time there is a sense of disappointment.
In this kind of disappointment one becomes full of anxiety, sheds
tears, changes bodily color, feels humility and breathes heavily.
When Krsna, in punishing the Kaliya serpent, appeared to have
drowned Himself in the poisonous water of the Yamuna, Nanda
Maharaj addressed Yasoda Devi thusly: “My dear wife, Krsna has
gone deep into the water, and so there is no longer any need to main-
tain our bodies, which are so full of sinful activities! Let us also enter
into the poisonous water of the Yamuna and compensate for the
sinful activities of our lives!” This is an instance of severe shock, |
where the devotee becomes greatly disappointed.
When Krsna left Vrndavana, Subala, His intimate friend, decided to |
leave also. While leaving, Subala was contemplating that without |
Krsna there was no longer any pleasure to be found in Vrndavana.
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