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“Alas, I am still trying to relish different pleasurable states from this
body, which is simply some skin covering mucus, semina and blood.
In this state of consciousness I am so condemned that I cannot relish
the transcendental ecstasy of remembering the Supreme Personality
of Godhead.” In this statement there are two ecstatic loving humors,
namely neutrality and ghastliness. Neutrality is taken here as the
whole, whereas the ecstasy of ghastliness is the part.

There is a similar statement by a devotee as follows: “I shall now
begin my service of fanning the Supreme Personality of Godhead, Sri
Krsna, who is seated on a golden throne. He is the supreme Param-
brahma in His eternal transcendental form of a cloudy blackish com-
plexion. Now I shall give up my affection for my material body,
which is nothing but a bunch of flesh and blood.” Herein also there
is a combination of servitude and ghastliness, where the ecstasy of
servitude is taken as the whole, and the ecstasy of ghastliness is taken
as the part.

There is another statement as follows: “When shall I be freed from
the mode of ignorance? And being thus purified, when shall I attain
the stage of serving Krsna eternally? Only then shall I be able to wor-
ship Him, always observing His lotus eyes and beautiful face.” In this
statement the whole is the ecstasy of neutrality, and the part is ser-
vitorship.

There is another statement as follows: ‘“‘Please look at this devotee
of the Lord who is dancing just from remembering the lotus feet of
Krsna. Simply by observing his dance you will lose all interest in even
the most beautiful women!” In this statement the whole is in neu-
trality, and the part is in ghastliness.

One devotee boldly said, “My dear Lord, now I am turning my
face from any thought of association with young girls. As far as
Brahman realization is concerned, I have lost all interest because I am
completely absorbed in thinking about You. And being absorbed so
blissfully, I have lost all other desires, even the desire for mystic
powers. Now my mind is only attracted to worshiping Your lotus
feet.” In this statement, the whole is the ecstasy of neutrality, and
the part is chivalry.

In another statement, Subala is addressed thus: “My dear Subala,
