Text 143] Ripa Gosvami's Meeting with the Lord 75

esa snigdha-ghana-dyutir manasi me lagnah pate viksanat
kastam dhik purusa-traye ratir abhGn manye mrtih sreyasi

SYNONYMS

ekasya—of one person; srutam—heard; eva—certainly; lumpati—take away;
matim—the mind; krsna iti—Krsna; nama-aksaram—the letters of the name;
sandra-unmada—of intense madness; paramparam—a shower; upanayati—
brings; anyasya—of another; varnsi-kalah—the sound vibration of the flute;
esah—this third one; snigdha—giving love; ghana-dyutih—lightninglike
effulgence; manasi—in the mind; me—My; lagnah—attachment; pate—in the
picture; viksanat—by seeing; kastam dhik—oh, shame upon Me; purusa-traye —
to three persons; ratih—attachment; abhit—has appeared; manye—! think;
mrtih—death; sreyasi—better.

TRANSLATION

Experiencing previous attachment to Krsna [pirva-raga], Srimati Radharani
thought: ‘‘Since I have heard the name of a person called Krsna, | have prac-
tically lost My good sense. Then, there is another person who plays His flute in
such a way that after | hear the vibration, intense madness arises in My heart.
And again there is still another person to whom My mind becomes attached
when I see His beautiful lightning effulgence in His picture. Therefore | think
that | am greatly condemned, for | have become simultaneously attached to
three persons. It would be better for Me to die because of this.”

PURPORT
This verse is from Vidagdha-madhava (2.9).

TEXT 143

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iyam sakhi suduhsddhya
radha hrdaya-vedana

krta yatra cikitsapi
kutsdyam paryavasyati

SYNONYMS

iyam—this; sakhi—my dear friend; suduhsadhy4—incurable; radhd—of
Srimati Radharani; hrdaya-vedand—palpitation of the heart; krta—done; yatra—
