Text 53] The Lord’s Feelings of Separation 215
PURPORT
This verse is part of a description of Srimati Radharani's different traits from Uj-
jvala-nilamani by Srila Ripa Gosvani. In this book, he elaborately explains the ten
symptoms as follows.
Cinta. As stated in the Hamsaduta:
yada yato gopi-hrdaya-madano nanda-sadanan
mukundo gandinyas tanayam anurundhan madhu-purim
tadamdanksic cinta-sariti ghana-gharnaparicayair
agadhayam vadhamaya-payasi radha virahini
“At the request of Akridira, Krsna and Balarama left the house of Nanda Maharaja
for Mathura. At that time, Srimati Radharani’s mind was disrupted, and She be-
came almost mad because of extreme separation from Krsna. She experienced
great mental pain and agitation, which caused Her to drown in mental speculation
in the river of anxiety. She thought, ‘Now | am going to die, and when | die, Krsna
will surely come back to see Me again. But when He hears of My death from the
people of Vrndavana, He will certainly be very unhappy. Therefore | shall not
die.” This is the explanation of the word cinta.
Jagara. As stated in the Padyavali:
yah pasyanti priyam svapne
dhanyastah sakhi yositah
asmakam tu gate krsne
gata nidrapi vairini_
Thinking Herself very unfortunate, Srimati Radharani addressed Her very dear
friend Visakha, “My dear friend, if | could see Krsna in My dreams, | would cer-
tainly be glorified for My great fortune. But what can | do? Sleep also plays
mischievously with Me. Indeed, it has become My enemy. Therefore | have not
slept since the departure of Krsna.”
Udvega. This word is also explained in the Hamsaduta as follows:
mano me ha kastam jvalati kim aham hanta karavai
na param navaram sumukhi kalayém yasya jaladheh
iyam vande murdhnd sapadi tam upayam kathaya me
paramrsye yasmdad dhrti-kanikayapi ksani-kaya
Stimati Radharani addressed Lalita, “My dear beautiful-faced Lalita, | cannot ex-
press how My heart is burning. It is a great, unfathomable ocean of anxiety. Still, |
wish to offer My obeisances at your lotus feet. What shall | do? Please consider
