Text 53] The Lord’s Feelings of Separation 217
Me from dying of heart disease? | must condemn Providence, for he has caused
Me so many tribulations by separating Me from Krsna.”
Vyadhi is also described in Lalita-madhava:
uttapi puta-pakato ‘pi garala-gramad api ksobhano
dambholer api duhsahah katur alarn hrn-magna-stlyadd api
tivrah praudha-vistcikani-cayato ‘py uccair mamayam bali
marmany adya bhinatti gokula-pater vislesa-janma jvarah
Being greatly afflicted by the pain of separation from Krsna, Srimati Radharani said,
“My dear Lalita, kindly hear Me. | cannot bear suffering the fever of separation
from Krsna, nor can | explain it to you. It is something like gold melting in an
earthen box. This fever produces more distress than poison, and it is more piercing
than a thunderbolt. | suffer exactly like someone almost dead from cholera. To be
giving Me so much pain, this fever must be very strong indeed.”
Unmada is explained as follows:
bhramati bhavana-garbhe nirnimittarh hasanti
prathayati tava vartam cetandcetanesu
luthati ca bhuvi radhaé kampitangi murdre
visama-viraha-khedodgari-vibhranta-citta
Uddhava said to Krsna, “My dear Krsna, all the gopis are so afflicted by Your ab-
sence that they have become almost mad. O Murari, at home Stimati Radharani
laughs unnecessarily and, like a madwoman, inquires about You from every entity
without distinction, even from the stones. She rolls on the ground, unable to bear
the agony of Your absence.”
Moha is explained as follows:
nirundhe dainyabdhim harati guru-cinta paribhavam
vilumpaty unmadam sthagayati balad baspa-laharim
idanim kamsdare kuvalaya-drsah kevalam idarn
vidhatte sacivyarn tava viraha-mdrcchd-sahacari
Lalita wrote Krsna the following letter on Srimati Radharani’s behalf: “My dear
Krsna, separation from You has greatly agitated Srimati Radharani’s mind, and She
has fallen unconscious on the ground. O enemy of Karnsa, You have now become
a first-class politician, and therefore You can supposedly give relief to everyone.
Therefore please consider the plight of Srimati Radharani, or very soon You will
hear of Her death. Maybe at that time You will lament, although now You are
jubilant.”
