290 Sri Caitanya-caritamrta [Antya-lila, Ch. 20

TRANSLATION

| infer that ‘I have written” is a false understanding, for my body is like a
wooden doll.

TEXT 93

qs Satya alsa wm, ates |
Be Sica, acargie ace cata faa not

vrddha jaratura ami andha, badhira
hasta hale, manobuddhi nahe mora sthira

SYNONYMS

vrddha—an old man; jard-dtura—troubled by invalidity; ami—l; andha—blind;
badhira—deaf; hasta hale—my hands tremble; manah-buddhi—mind and intelli-
gence; nahe—not; mora—my; sthira—steady.

TRANSLATION

| am old and troubled by invalidity. | am almost blind and deaf, my hands
tremble, and my mind and intelligence are unsteady.

TEXT 94

atal-cattas, —pface afacs a attfa |
ABCA A-Mol-anga, atfe-feca af uss i

nand-roga-grasta, —calite vasite na pari
pafica-roga-pida-vyakula, ratri-dine mari

SYNONYMS
nand-roga-grasta—affected by so many diseases; calite—to walk; vasite—to sit
down; na pari—l am not properly able; pafica-roga-pida-vyakula—always dis-
turbed by five kinds of disease; ratri-dine—day or night; mari—| can die any time.

TRANSLATION

| am infected by so many diseases that | can neither properly walk nor
properly sit. Indeed, | am always exhausted by five kinds of disease. | may die
at any time of the day or night.
