Text 19] Conversation Between Narada and Vyasa 295

them vanish all perturbance of the mind. These are the special features of
the transcendental form of the Lord, and one who has once seen that
form is not satisfied with anything else, and no form in the material world
can any longer satisfy the seer. Formless means nothing like material form.
Nor is He like any material personality.

As spiritual beings, having eternal relations with that transcendental
form of the Lord, we are, life after life, searching after that form of the
Lord, and we are not satisfied by any other form of material appeasement.
Narada Muni got a glimpse of this, but having not seen it again he became
perturbed and stood up all of a sudden to search it out. What we desire
life after life was obtained by Narada Muni, and losing sight of Him again
was certainly a great shock for him.

TEXT 19

ieeaece wa: aftr wat ae |
ftaammstt away zarat 12811

didrksustad aham bhiiyah
pranidhaya mano hrdi

viksamano ‘pi napasyam
avitrpta ivaturah

didrksuh—desiring to see; tat—that; aham—1; bhityah—again; pranidhaya
—having concentrated the mind; manah—mind; hrdi—upon the heart;
viksamanah—awaiting to see; api—in spite of; na—never; apasyam—saw
Him; avitrptah—without being satisfied; iva—like; dturah—aggrieved.

TRANSLATION

I desired to see again that transcendental form of the Lord, but
despite my attempts to concentrate upon the heart with eagerness to
renew the form, I could not see Him any more, and thus dissatisfied, I was
very much aggrieved.

PURPORT

There is no mechanical process to see the form of the Lord. It com-
pletely depends on the causeless mercy of the Lord. We cannot demand
the Lord to be present before our vision just as we cannot demand the sun
