290 Srimad-Bhagavatam [Canto 10, Ch. 4

vai—indeed; gamisyami—shall go; brahma-ha iva—like the killer of a
brahmana; mrtah svasan—either after death or while breathing.

. TRANSLATION

Being merciless and cruel, I have forsaken all my relatives and
friends. Therefore, like a person who has killed a brahmana, I do
not know to which planet I shall go, either after death or while
breathing.

TEXT 17

Zana ah a eat oa Fae |
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daivam apy anrtam vakti
na martya eva kevalam
yad-visrambhadd aham papah
svasur nihatavan chisin

daivam—providence; api—also; anrtam—lies; vakti—say; na—
not; martyGh—human beings; eva—certainly; kevalam—only; yat-
visrambhat—because of believing that prophecy; aham—I; papah—the
most sinful; suasuh—of my sister; nihatavan—killed; sisin—so many

children.

TRANSLATION

Alas, not only human beings but sometimes even providence
lies. And I am so sinful that I believed the omen of providence and
killed so many of my sister’s children.

TEXT 18
AMAT ATAU HATS: |
AA A AHA Zavftareaarad U2

ma socatarh maha-bhagav
Gtmajan sva-krtam bhujah
